fml.

dear evan,

you can go die in a fire.

but i think i told you that anyways.

so, i'm not going to tell you for some time.

cross that out, for a long time.

merry christmas, i could care less.

with loathing,

ariel xo

gingko.

to put a smile on a certain someone.

_{i hope...}

-xo

Cut.

cut. by ~lily-ARZ on deviantART
My piece was featured in a article on deviantART that was on the theme of depression. Which means a lot to me, being one who has suffered from it. So everyone knows, depression is a serious matter that is not a joke nor associated with a stupid label.
The article.

The fact I've been featured surprises me, but I am honored.

-xo

long time no see.

um, yeah. so i'm in u.s. history rn, and it's a dick-fest in here. dead serious about that.

"tris" is a major bitch with mental problems. siska wants to go see brokencyde tomorrow, but i prob can't go cause i'm at my mom's rn.

the reason i'm at my mom's is cause my step-mom kicked me out of my dad's last week.

evan told me to blog about him. so, uhh...he's pretty awesome. no joke.

honest to blog.

oh evan, you have so many acronyms to learn.

okay, i'm done for today.

or the month....

-xo

Oh, hey.

So, I ambushed a media group's mac.

I know, so hxc.

Okay, so, yeah.

I like Twitter?

Ahaha.

Okay, bye.

-xo

Long time, no post.

HELLO BITCHES AND BASTERDS.

Um, school is okay for the most part.

Guy friend is totally clueless.

Art 2 is hella awesome.

Nate is a fucking tool.

Life is kinda fantastic again C:

-xo

So it starts again.

So, right now I'm in Eppley's 3rd period class once again. Only, not for media. I've been taking Art 2 directive studies in here. The media class is really full this year, and out of all the students in this class, my fucking tool of a ex is in here (Nate). Slightly awkward, but I'll get used to it.

As you can see, I'm having my Doogie Howser moment right now.

I miss blogging in this class, and now I get to do it more! SPLEEE~! Haha, now I just have to get TOR working up again so I can get on dA and livejournal. LOL.

So, I got to get back working on my art piece rn, so. Yeah.

-xo

Hey!

I'm still here! Hahaha.

Well, summer school has been good so far, made some new friends and catching up with old ones. A lot has been going on since I last posted so here's a break down on what has been up with me.

1. Last day of school, saw Night at the Museum 2 and The Hangover with some friends. Also ditched that day.

2. Catching up on Heroes season 3 and hanging around in the Heroes LJ comms.

3. Recently watched Kill Bill again. Badass movie right there.

4. Drawing a lot actually. Hopefully I can catch up with scanning them in.

5. Planing to leave deviantART soon. I have my reasons why, I'll be using my LJ for once to post my art and such.

6. July 4th, Carlina slept over. Hella fun that night, haha. I'll post the videos soon.

7. HOLY FUCK, HARRY POTTER, LESS THAN FOUR DAYS. HOLY SHIT. KFDSSBGSDFJBSDJVBSJDBVCJSDBVJDSBVKSDBVKDSJF.

8. R.I.P. MJ & Billy Mays. D:

9. I've been back on Neopets recently also, my username is lilyxzombie.

10. I think I'll be vloging too. I'm not too sure yet, but it's a possibility.

11. Good riddance to you Ryan Ross. I never really liked you anyways. It was all about Brendon and Spencer. At least they don't copy off of Chuck's work. GO TEAM LESBIAN CAT!! FUCK YEAH, WHOO!

12. I've been painting more. I like it a lot C:


Well, that's it~ I need to get ready to leave to see Bruno!

-xo

12.

Sup bitches!

Haha, summer vacation has arrived! YAY!!

I have summer school starting next week, but it's Monday-Thursday. Which is hella nice.

Harry Potter 6. Holy. Shit. Romulans. Nargles.

Yeah, I just made a Star Trek reference. What are you gonna do about it?

Got cable yesterday, whoot! Watched Daisy of Love, Star Trek: Enterprise, and Stargate SG-1.

Sci Fi is my new bff. Forget you, Cartoon Network.

Umm...I'm kinda hungry right now, but I'll get food later.

Speidi needs to gtfo and diaf. Acronyms were needed to show my hate for these two.

Conan O' Brien is fucking awesome~! :DDDD

Greg Grunberg updates his twitter too much! DDDD:

Needs more Heroes updates if you ask me.

Zachary Quinto needs to update his more!!

plskkthx.

That's it.

-xo

Teenage issues&such.

One, I was extremely bitter yesterday when I typed up the last post. Don't ask why I was, but after I posted that entry I felt better letting out my teenage anger at Miss Cali.

Two, how hard is it to ask the guy you like to something as simple as picnic prom?

Three, NBC is being lame. Just completely lame right now.

Four, Twitter is extremely addicting.

Five, I have something to admit, I'm a Trekkie.

Six, Samar knows who the guy is and plans to use this as a advantage to get me to stop asking her if Ryan has kissed her yet (SEVEN MONTHS. HOLY SHIT).

Seven, school is almost over in a few weeks, frack yeah~.

Eight, Zachary Quinto has a blog, and his posts are AMAZING (or I might be biased, who knows).

Nine, there is this quiz going around my f-list on FaceBook called "Are you a potato?", yeah. I'm not a potato just for the record, so please stop trying to cook me.

Ten, I should be doing my homework right now.

Eleven, I'm legit excited for Sims 3 to come out, not gonna lie.

Twelve, I plan on getting my mom's computer that she doesn't use anymore so I can use it just for Sims.

Thirteen, yay summer school! Whoo~ /sarcasm.

Fourteen, OMG HARRY POTTER 6, SDHVKGBFVJDSHGVJDHFVCJDFGDSJKHGJDSHFKDSGBVKDSHGVJSHVCBHJDGFHDSKJGVBJDSHF.

Okay, I'm done for today.

-xo

Tegaki E dump.

Cause rn it's boring in [insert class name here].








i just drew this like, 5 minutes ago... :|

wheee~ fml.


-xo

Ignorance is bliss.

That saying was from a song by Gym Class Heroes.

So, yesterday after school, I was talking to my friend Issac about random stuff. And we brought up "over-rated" musicians in our opinion. This came to Bob Marley, and my exact words to him was "Oh God, Bob Marley sucks." and a girl wearing a shirt with Bob Marley on it walked by us, and my guess was she overheard us. She was all like "EXCUSE ME, WHAT DID YOU SAY?!", stuff like that and kept walking past us.

So, I'm now on my way home, and I stop to talk to another friend of mine, Patrick. Well, as I was talking to him, that same girl with the Bob Marley shirt walks up to me and bitches at me about how I disrespected Bob Marley and whatnot. This is what made me realize how stupid some of the students are at Clovis West. And I quote Patrick:

"CW is full of ghetto Pinedale kids, I feel bad for you Ariel."


Notice that school is not only known for it's snobby rich white kids, but its ghetto Pinedale kids also. I truly hate CW, but I'm only surviving with the rest of my friends who hate it here also. But I can never bring myself to move to a different school at all.

Anyways, hopefully I don't get people mad at me for this post since I only do this to put insight of my life for others who don't see me as much anymore. If I offended you (depending on who you are), I'm sorry. But other than that, I hope you people know that yelling and violence doesn't solve anything.

By the way, I can say whatever the hell I want. If you don't like it, then keep your mouth shut and stop defending it. There is no point of trying to change one's opinion, for it never goes anywhere.

-xo

State testing.

It's boring as hell, not gonna lie. I just finished up two subjects (within two days) and I have two more next week (math and science). I'm not excited about this, but since I usually finish early, the extra time left over has given me a chance to write my own little fangirl-ish Heroes fanfic. I haven't gotten far on it, nor do I plan on posting it anywhere on the internet since that can ruin my image on the Heroes-lj and on the Mohinder one too (yes, I have a image to keep).

I wish I joined the Heroes Evolution sites when it started. I want to, but it's such a complicated process that I don't feel like dealing with right now (besides, I can't use my phone at school, tho I've been using it for texting and updating the twitter).

My fan thing on my laptop is loud. The vibrating setting on a cell phone is louder in a dead silent classroom. True facts.

I feel awkward when I use my tablet to draw during class. Like everyone is just watching me draw, I hate it. And of course, not everyone knows what the hell a tablet is, so I'm hit with the question of what the heck that silver pad is.

Damn, I forgot the proxy site I used to use. Fml. I really want to go on lj and dA right now, arggg. Puck you school internet, puck you.

At least I can sign on MSN messenger. But of course no one is online, hahaha...fml.

-xo

Getting sick.

It sucks. I didn't have the flu, it wasn't a cold. No, it was a virus. Notice how I'm not exact on what it is, but it's a virus? Yeah, hated it so much. All I could eat was ramen, bread, and crackers and all I drank was G2 and water. And amusement? Well, most of the time I slept, but on the side I watched The Soup, iCarly, Fred videos, and Heroes season 1. To be quite honest, I lost count on how many episodes of Heroes I watched on Friday night. I thought I watched like, 10. Turned out I watched 8. And the side effect was having dreams that pertained to Heroes.

Dream #1!

Mohinder and Sylar all of a sudden become BFFFs, which then lead to them becoming more than BFFFs. And I don't mean bromance, I mean romance. Then Sylar is like "Moh-baby~~, let's adopt!", and they adopted me cause I also had ~super powers~ (manipulate the elements or something like that, I don't know). It was awkward for awhile, then I got used to it. Just so you know, Sylar was the one wearing the pants in the relationship far as I can tell in my dream. And Mohinder was a really amazing cook, he made some badass pasta dish.

Dream #2!

This was awkward. So it starts out like this, top of a building, and here I stand in the middle between Sylar, Peter, and Mohinder. Apparently I had to choose who I really did love between the guys and I was all confused and scared. Peter and Sylar were yelling/shouting at all the good/bad times I had with them or whatever, but Mohinder was standing there in silence, looking very calm. Then Sylar is like "What's it gonna be, Ariel?", and I pretty much ran to Mohinder (prepare for a fangirl moment...) into his arms, crying. He whispered something like "I knew you'd come back.", or something around there.

Dream #3!
To be quite honest, it was just recreating the scene from the episode "The Butterfly Effect" where Mohinder and Maya were having crazy jungle passionate sex in the lab. But only I took Maya's place. It was awesome~~. I never liked her anyways. Oh, minus the whole "HOLY SHIT I HAVE SCALES." part. I think it's some form the continuation of dream #2, I could be wrong.

Dream #4!
I think you can see the pattern in the dreams. Mohinder Suresh. This time, it's less...er...awkward. I'm a senior in high school, taking zoology, and the teacher turns out to be him. I'm a very good student apparently, and in his class and everyone calls him Dr. Suresh. I turn out to be one the few ~favorite~ students of his, too. One day, I guess I had a shitty day and it showed to him and was like "Ariel, stay after class, I have some work to give you." or something like that. Turns out he wanted to ask if something was wrong and wanted to help and talk it out. Which helped and then told me "You're a good artist by the way. You don't think I see your doodles when you're done with your tests, don't you?", I nod my head, cause, I usually hope my teachers don't see my artwork (only a few I'm comfortable with since they are either the teacher of my favorite class, and/or has a history with me example, have the same teacher again the next year for a different class). He then smiles and then adds "One day, you're going to end up famous, I bet you. And everyone that knew you are gonna look back probably on how shitty they treated you. It's called karma, Ariel. And it can be used to your advantage.", which makes me think that my dreams are telling me to continue art. I don't plan to stop any time soon anyways~. Thank you dream!Mohinder.

Alright, I think I'm done here for now.

-xo

ps, i'm a little ticked that mohinder is m.i.a. rn in the season. i'm hoping he'll be in the season finale.

Childhood.

Well, since my spring break is almost over, I decided to spend Easter watching old shows I used to watch back then. This included Pepper Ann, Doug, Recess, Gargoyles, Sabrina: The Animated Series, oh my god, I could go on. This was my childhood, my parents (before the divorce) would fight a lot, so to get away from reality, I watched a lot of cartoons. Much of a reason why my imagination is just completely bonkers (haha, that was another cartoon I used to watch, too) now. Also, probably why I can be immature at times. To this day, I still watch cartoons, and I could care less.

Pepper Ann was the all-time favorite for me. Saturday morning, wake up, turn the T.V. on, and watch the cartoons with my dad. And Pepper Ann was the bomb. I thought she was the coolest girl, and I wanted to be like her when I got older (ironically, I kinda did). I thought it was cool she liked to play video games and roller bladed to school or where ever she was going, yet was dealing with peer pressure of middle school of her reputation. Now, I didn't of it that way when I was little, but now that I'm older, I can relate to a lot of it. Middle school sucked.

Doug, Doug, Doug. Wow, this show had to be on something, I swear. I actually don't remember the Nick version (due to the fact I had no cable), so I unfortunately cannot relate to the early fans. But I watched the Disney version with my dad (I recently asked him if he remembers it, apparently he does), and told me when I was little, I was scared to watch the movie (okay, there was a sea monster, A SEA FREAKING MONSTER). I watched it a week ago on the internet, and wow, it was funny. But I'm still ticked off that I'll never know if Patti and Doug ever end up together (Digimon epilogue-esque episode!).

Recess was the satire of elementary school. There was the cliques, the random "club houses", the "let's make a huge pile of dirt" group, it had it all. I watch it now and realize how much The Ashleys were bitches. The movie was awesome, and the fourth grade teacher was freaking cool. And the playground set was just crazy, I wish it actually existed. Thank god none of the schools I went to were like that.

Gargoyles! HOLY SHIT THAT SHOW WAS BADASS. 'Nuff said.

Sabrina was the show of my dreams. I was so fascinated by witches, and magical stuff like that cause of that show mostly. Sabrina and Harvey=OTP. All the way, I thought they were the coolest couple ever. I used to read the comics and paperback novels (when I got a bit older, I watched the live action series). Every once in a while, the theme song gets stuck in my head.


Oh, childhood, how much I miss it.


-xo

ps, if I put the comic book based show here too, it would be a very long post.

English class.

Well, I should be typing up my essay on why abortion should be fully legal.

And I'm really tired.


fml.


-xo

Akward meetings.

So, on Friday night, I decided to get out of the house and go to Borders. I enjoy it since there is just so much to read there and they close at 11pm, so that is a plus. As I was saying, I went there to read some good books/comics/manga/etc., and I found some totally bomb titles like Marvel Zombies and Harley&Ivy. Well, as some know, I have been trying to keep my comic book nerd status a secret now. So, I usually go to the "Religion" section in the store, since no one really goes there to read. Somehow, it was really crowded there, which pissed me off. And out of nowhere, some guy in my World History class sees me with these two random dumb bitches and he says to me "Hey, aren't you in my World History class? Lily, right?", and here I am holding fucking Catwoman: When in Rome and I look up at him fucking nervous and all I said was "Oh, er...yeah, sure. See you on Monday."

God, I felt so embarrassed.

-xo

Just a little something.

To prove that I'm not dead.



Yeah, the Skins party photos make me laugh.

-xo

Partying in the future.

I always wondered how it would be like to go to a party like the ones they show in Skins. I'm not into the alcohol or drugs, but I have this feeling when I leave Fresno I'm going to end up at these kind of parties.

I found them funny and just one of the many things that you encountered in your lifetime. My cousin Juli showed me photos of this venue/club she goes to sometimes in West Hollywood where all the punks and hipsters hang out.

One of the photos was this guy half nude, knocked out. She told me of this thing where you draw all over the person's body when they are in this state. She never did it, but she found it so funny to see.

Then she showed me the photos she took at these small gigs. There was a band she saw, and they were known to throw fake blood out to the crowd. She got some on her denim vest and told me it's been three months since that gig and the fake blood still won't come out.

Then Juli told me about her job at this photography studio she works at. The place is somewhere in Beverly Hills from what I remember she said. She told me she got to meet the lead singer of Foo Fighters, David Grohl and his family. Aparently his little daughter is very cute.

She lives in this one room apartment/loft in West Hollywood. She was able to have her photography on display in her very own art show. I wasn't able to go cause I had school at that time. But she released her own book with some of her photos.

I think it was called Slip. You can probably google it. Her name is Juli Lindsey.

As I was saying, I've seen all these shows&movies and read these books that were based around the underground scene with these teenagers that were about to leave high school. And I always thought to myself if this was going to happen to me when that time comes.

Along the fact I do have friends that will most likely go or even host these kind of parties. I know I'll probably end up being the designated driver. I won't like it, but I'll do it for the sake of my friends'...er...health.

I know that living a straight edge lifestyle is a little difficult with some of the friends I hang out with. But I have confidence that I can pull through with it.

My only wish is to hope my friends won't become addicts. It is one of the things I hate to see before my very eyes. And what I've learned is to give that person their wake-up call to come back to the real world as soon as possible before it gets any worse.

No, I'm no one's wife, but I love my life with all that jazz.

-xo

library.

Well, hello.

I'm in the library right now cause if you remember, parents took Phillis away from me.

I have so much damn art to scan in, it's not even funny. And I've taken much intrest in the show Skins. Cause, I like alcholic Muslim guys.

Anwar=<3333333333


:D

And I'm trying to get my dad to rent me My So-Called Life for me. I miss seeing pre-30StM Jared Leto ;__;. And I'm still in my Bollywood phase, god, I love those kind of movies. Got a new cell for once, I like it, tho it's heavier than my phone charms....O__o.

And I've watched Slumdog Millionaire so many times, the songs are like...imbeded into my head forever.
Jai Ho~~!

Tru fax.

Watchmen was amazing last night! Yes, there was some differences, but it was still a great addition to the fandom. I'm thinking of seeing it again soon.

look! a blue cock!

Anyways, things have been pretty good. Moving on and such silly things. Still kinda addicted to Flair on Facebook. Yeah....anyways, I think I'll stop here for today. I have a sweet sixteen to go to tonight!

-ariel xo

Shoot me.

Ihatedetention.

So damn borring I want to jab my eyes out.

Besides that, I'm excited for tomorrow!!

haha~~

:D

-ariel xo

Valentine's Day.

I'll tell you this, it was AWESOME~!

Well, I mean, nothing can compare to V-Day of 2007 with Peter. Watching Silent Hill, then playing numerous video games. Haha.

Well, this year I was with my "Jim" at the local hang-out, RiverPark. His cousin was with us also. It was so crowded there, but it was srsly fun. Before "Jim" came to meet me at Borders, I was talking to this girl, Erica, about yaoi and bl, stuff like that. Haha, yet when my bf came, we stopped talking about bl and we were like "Oh, haha, we were talking about err...stuff! Yes, stuff, nerdy things you won't ever understand.". Yep. I also witnessed "Jim"'s cousin straightner shopping. LOL. Haha, and I met bf's parents, very nice people :D.

Well, I'm done for today~~


-ariel xo

Mister manager.

corn baller.

-ariel xo

We're so starving.

Wow, hey guys. Long time no blog post. Dear Lord, so much has happened since my last post, so here's the recap in my shitty life.

Grounded

Yes, my step-mom took "Phyllis" from me. I really don't know how I'm still alive.
TV isn't that much of a deal though.

The Death of The Tiger Do

Yep, my blonde hair is GONE. I'm sorta back to my natural hair color now. The blonde was starting to look v. groce.

Art

There is a shit load to scan. End of story.

China/Japan Town

Holy shit, that was fun. I'll post pictures and videos as soon as I get Phyllis back.

Relationships

I'm offically taken. And I'm very happy that I'm with him <3.

Possibly Sick

tru fax. My cough is getting pretty bad.

Lol

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end.


-ariel xo

YO, GET CRUNK.

idk, formal is soooooooooo '05.


FUCK YOU TO ANYONE WHO WENT TO FORMAL.


LOL, sarcasm.




creepster~~~~~


:D

-ariel xo

SURPRISE BITCH.

-ariel xo

Ask yourself, it might be true.

Anyways, it's been awhile since I blogged.

AKWARD~~~

So, media is getting to srs bsns.

I know, weird.

So, yeah.

LOL, winter formal is tomorrow.

Am I going?

NO.

Haha, I might just join my friends in their "anti-formal" over at RiverPark.

Wow, nothing interesting happened this week...yet.

OH! February 7th is when I go to China Town with the Chinese Club.

even tho i'm not technically in the club anymore.

I'm gonna hang out with Jamie's group, and get some bento lunch stuff.

WHEEE~~~

I'm insane!!

maybe.

And fake Katy Perry n00ds are out.

I think, they really don't look like her.

Whatever, I'm out.

-ariel xo

I'm the worst girlfriend you've ever had.

Just a little something that came to me.

So you know how I ended things straight.
Saying how I can't corporate.
That I'm living a lie and I can't go on.
And I feel like such a fool to even let it go this long.
My words are true and it's a sad fact.
I'm like a lost puppy who can't stay on track.
Just admit to me I'm not the one.
'Cause I know you can't live with my bipolar act.
And all this indie/nerdcore shit isn't your thing.
Just say the truth,
I'm the worst girlfriend you've ever had.

I could be just going through a phase.
Of having relationships that only lasts for days.
It could be that Akira crippled my dating ways.
'Cause, you know.
I was so infatuated with his "personality".
Or it could be that you are unable to show a bit of emotionality.
There were times you came off as a total prick.
And I know I can be a twat.
So I'll say it again,
I'm the worst girlfriend you ever had.

All my friends were so happy for me.
The whole moving on thing on a degree.
I tried my best to see if we would go anywhere with this.
And all it proved to me is I'm a heartless bitch.
So go on and say it.
Yell it if you please.
Tell everyone you know that I'm the worst girlfriend you've ever had.
I don't care anymore, just stop hanging on me.
'Cause now the birds are singing "you're a fool to fall for her".
I know who I am.
But do you know who I think I am?
This is my last word to you.
I'm the worst girlfriend you ever had.

Huge update/Happy New Years!/Projects.

Okay, to start off, I would like to say Happy 2009 everyone!!

Now let's start it with a bang.

I came back from my grandmama's on the 30th, and New Years Eve was celebrated by playing Sly Cooper 2 then having your dad come in at 12:01 AM saying "Happy New Years, you dork! :D".

Yes, and I love Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog. Neil Patrick Harris is amazing actor in my honest opinion.

And my projects are held back once again DD:

Sorry to disappoint anyone. Be happy I uploaded art on time.

Well, look at my wrist! I gotta go!

-ariel xo